Usually, I hate being on my own. I feel alone. But there are a few days where I think I need to have them to my own. I feel bad rejecting my friends and telling them I don't want to go out. I think I need to stop feeling bad and just do my thing. Which is, for now, watching telly and eating food. And then, in the end, feeling sick due to eating too much food. Yeah, there is no feeling like "being full". The only two conditions I know are "hungry" and "sick". It's not really helpful when it comes down to body issues or having lunch at work, but I love eating and, fortunately, I love sports, too.
So, the only good thing I've done this weekend was making a surprise visit to my dear friend who is in hospital at the moment. Moreover, I went for a run on a Saturday evening and failed really badly. So I decided to spend my night in front of the tv, with crappy food.
And it was ace! I have to say, when I was younger, I couldn't really be alone without actually feeling alone. Now, I learned to enjoy my own company, and it's the best feeling I've ever had. Feeling comfortable when I'm alone is a huge relief. And I can just advise you to learn how to feel comfy with your own company. What I personally still have to learn, is how to say "no" without feeling bad. Because I always worry and have a funny stomach when I reject someone. In the end, true friends will always understand. For now, I will just keep drinking my Saturday morning coffee to get away from all worries and concerns and see what the weekends hold for me.
